Poem from my heart

For my Grandparents that I love & miss <3




I miss your voice, your smile, your face
You made this world a better place
Now when I think of you I cry
I miss you more, each day I die


I need to see your sparkling eyes
I wasn't ready for goodbyes
I needed you to never leave
And now I'm left alone to grieve


So when I get to heaven please
Be the first face I get to see
I really miss the way you sing
You made the best of everything


You always brightened up my day
And always knew just way to say
I was with you until the end
You were my heart and a true friend


So when I see the stars and moon
I wish that I will see you soon
No one could ever take your place
You are the smile upon my face


The glitter in my eyes that shine
You beat inside this heart of mine
I miss you and it's plain to see
That heaven holds a piece of me

Paranormal State!

Trying to avoid watching any scary things lately. It takes a lot to scare me but we've had some "creepy" experiences lately so now I'm always watching my back. lol We had some experiences in our old place & I'm glad we've moved out. I just wonder if whatever was there has followed us here!! I could never sleep in the living room there cause I always felt like something was standing like 2 inches away from my face (my little sister stayed there once & refused to ever sleep in our living room again). When I'd be washing my dishes, I would always feel like someone was standing right behind me. I even woke up to a whole shelf of books on the floor when only Evan & I were at home.  The boys would ask us who was in the kitchen moving furniture around at 3am & we'd wake up to lights on when we remember turning them off.  Oh, and every once in a while, the corner of our room would smell like cigars. Weird & scary stuff happened there....even hubby had some scary experiences such as trying to get up when sleeping on his stomach but feeling that something was holding him down. Ever since Evan was a baby, we noticed that he'd be smiling & looking at the ceiling. As he got older, he would kneel on his chair in front of the window & say "hi" and have a "jibber jabber" conversation with the ceiling. The weirdest thing is that my brother's old friend lived at that place when he was little & I was talking to his ex-wife one day & I found out her ex husband's dad died in my room (can u say goose bumps)??!! Oh, and I asked her if his name started with an "A" (cause that letter kept popping in my head) and guess what people, his name was Al!!!! I also asked her if he was mean (cause I really felt whatever was there had a mean spirit) and I found out he was not a nice man and that he smoked cigars in a chair in that corner in our room when he was alive!! His wife passed as well. I was told that she was really sweet & that she loved babies (which probably explains who was hanging out in Evan's room). Needless to say, we couldn't have gotten out of there any sooner. I've started getting that "feeling" of having something right in front of my face & my older son keeps complaining that he hears footsteps in the attic (above his room) every night & that he's been hearing some type of scratching noises too...scares me just to write about it. Anyway, about to head to bed and I'm hoping I don't have to bust out the holy water or send emails to my friend Brian who deals with the paranormal and has been able to calm me down when I'm freaking out at 2am (thank u Bri)!! lol

Fun but Exhausting Weekend

Missing my in-laws being here. We took them to the airport on Saturday....what an ordeal! JetBlue was undergoing some type of special changes which made everything chaotic. The lines were extremely long & father in law had to come back outside to give us some bottles of rum he accidently packed in his overhead bags (ooooops, lol). Poor Evan missed giving his "bwelos" their kiss, hug, & "squeeze" at night. After we left the airport, we went to my cousin Lenny's house. I haven't seen her in about 14 years!! It was great seeing her & meeting her boys who were so adorable :) The kids had so much fun...my boys didn't want to leave. The drive home seemed eternal even though it was only a 2 hour drive (probably because we were in the car all day & I was thinking about the mess that was waiting for me at home). On Sunday we had a nice day out with the boys & got a lot of things done. Today I think that doing so much in the past month has started to catch up to me....I'm so exhausted right & I have a wicked migraine that has not responded to anything I've taken for it. I'm going to try and take it slow this month (not just saying it, I plan on sticking to it) and I think I'll start right now. It's pouring outside (very loudly) so I think I'm just going to fall asleep listening to all of this rain   =)

Giving Thanks

I wanted to write a note to give thanks. So many times we overlook all of the little things we've been blessed with and we tend to complain instead of thanking God for what we do have. I thank God for allowing me to be a mother which I think is the greatest gift he has given me. There is no greater love than that of a mother & child & being a mother has taught me so many things but the greatest lesson it has taught me is unconditional love. There is nothing I wouldn't do or give up for the well being of my boys &  I'm glad that they know that they are #1 to me....above & beyond anything or anyone else in my life. Being a mother has taught me to be selfless, to think of myself last, and to worry about someone else's needs & happiness other than my own. I am thankful for my children because without them I would be all alone in this world & I'd have no purpose in life. Another person I am thankful for is my wonderful husband....God truly blessed me when he brought him into my life. Not only is he the most hardworking, honest, & loving man that I know but there is nothing he wouldn't do for me or the boys. I appreciate that he works so hard to provide for us & that he always takes time out to play & spend time with the boys (even though I know he is exhausted...bendito). He never, ever complains & does everything with a smile on his face. I am thankful that I am married to such an admirable man & I love him with all of my <3. I'm also very thankful for my health. Those of you who know me well know what a horrible back I have inherited :( Surgery didn't help much & neither have all of the injections & meds I've been on. I am glad though that I am able to get up everyday & function.  I would hate to be confined to a bed like others who are worse off than I am. It is a gift to wake up everyday & see my kid's smiling faces. No matter how bad my day is....those smiles inspire me to work harder & to be a better person in life.
“Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough.” ~Oprah Winfrey~

So exhausted this weekend!! Yesterday I went to BJ's to buy a few things & I had to get a latte cause I was so tired I could hardly even function!! We stocked up on diapers (for home), pull-ups (for school), & wipes....thank goodness for coupons cause those things alone add up! We also stocked up on meats & snacks because we have more visitors coming this Friday =) Afterwards, we went to Toys R Us cause Koko got an electric guitar with his gift card but it didn't work out for him cause he's a lefty. Unfortunately for him, they sell absolutely no guitars for lefty's, so we had to return it. He ended up deciding on a basketball hoop (which made me happy cause I love playing basketball). I can't wait to put it up....my boys are a bit jealous of my B-ball skills. lol Afterwards, we went to eat & headed back home to put everything away (more work....ay, ay, aaaay). This morning, I made the boys a great breakfast & we've basically been cleaning all morning. I honestly wish we had black marble or tile floors because I can see every little speck of dust or crumb on these cream colored tiles & it drives me insane!! I could sweep/vacuum twice a day & it's never enough. Oh, and for some reason Evan's cream colored rug is always getting stained (with God knows what) and I have to steam clean it a few times a month. I'm tired just thinking about all of the cleaning we did today. lol  On a positive note, I have plenty of boy clothes that I'll be shipping to Haiti. The situation there is heartbreaking and the boys have lots of clothes that could be put to good use. The boys have been very affected by all of the pictures/videos on the news. We have been praying for everyone there. I only wish we could do more :(  The boys even get upset at Evan when he doesn't eat all of his food cause they think of all of the children there that haven't had anything to eat or drink for days, bendito. I wish I had enough money to adopt a few kids & give them a good life. God knows if I could....I would!!

Missing My Sis!!!

My sister left today. We've all been so sad that she had to leave :(  The baby came home searching each & every room for her while calling out for his "Titi Deychi"....bendito, he broke my heart. I miss her so much already & hope that she comes back soon. Yesterday was her last day here and I had to spend most of it running Evan to the doctor's cause he had projectile vomiting (he was miserable)!!  Even though Daisy was only here for a short time....we managed to get a lot of things done & had lots of fun. My favorite of course was getting a massage at the spa because we honestly needed it. After being here for a week, my sister has officially decided to not have children & get a dog instead. lolllll I can't blame her. The boys were so happy to have her here that they forgot to let her breathe a bit =) We did laugh way too much this week (to the point that my ribs were sore). No one else cracks up with me like my little sis & I'm glad that God listened to me when I was a little girl & prayed for a little sister <3

Visit#2 This Month.....My Sister!!!

I'm extremely happy this week because my little sister is here visiting!! I haven't seen her since May & we've all missed her like crazy. Yesterday we went to Walmart to stock up on goodies & baking stuff. I HAVE to make her some brownies with walnuts before she leaves (I think that may be the only reason why she came down here)....joking =) I have to show my sis how to cook some real food so she doesn't have to live off of Beefaroni & Oatmeal cream pies anymore. lol The boys are so excited that she's here. I can't believe that my older son is already taller than his Titi. Crazy how time flies. Anyway, my sister had me record her singing yesterday (a gazillion times) in order to submit a video for an audition. I made her promise that she will take me with her on the red carpet when she becomes famous!! We also went out to have dinner & she tried a Gorgonzola burger for the 1st time & loved it. Those are my favorite burgers. Those of you that know us well, know about our addiction to cheeeeeeese =) Evan was incredibly calm at dinner last night (I think it was thanks to skipping his nap). We stayed up for a bit to watch some videos & laugh....very loudly (Daisy has a unique laugh). I caught up with some sleep last night but if it were up to me I would've stayed in bed for a few more hours. Wish my little sister didn't have to leave in a few days :(